My wondering page...

    So anyways I just got out of the shower (Its currently midnight) after a brisk run outside in the rain. Why was I running out in the rain this late at night you ask? Well lets just say I'm in the WTF? point in my life. In other words, all I can think about is this question: What is the point of this. Yeah most of you might think this sounds suicidal and all that but I think not. Its an important question that for some reason keeps popping up and getting in the way of everything. Things like school, my job, my possesions, friendships, my morals, my religion, my future path in life keep sounding less and less important. Is this because there is some greater goal in life? Is this because none of it really matters? What the heck am I doing here typing this page up when I should be doing calculus homework? Why am I even doing calculus homework? What is that damn class going to do for me in the real life? Why do I care what the difference between a cis and a trans chemical compound? Why do I put up with the crap Target gives me? Why don't I just join the army? Where am I going to go after college? Am I going to graduate college?
Does any of this shit really matter?!!!!!! Why does it keep bothering me? Ugghh I need to go to a metal concert and mosh like you wouldn't believe.

I have no clue, and don't bother attempting to help me. I hate it when people feel pity for me its the worst thing in the world. Why do I deserve pity, i'm just a middle class post-teenager who has a lot on his mind. WHY DO PEOPLE EVEN CARE? I'm not special so get off my nuts, and go help some kid with polio or something cause I know he deserves more help then I ever should need. As a matter of fact forget anything I just told you and move on with your lives. Cause I think I need to do this on my own.

Back to my main page (it's all a bunch of bullshit so don't bother reading it).

(I spilled my guts in about 5 minutes)